3 june 09

hahha its 4.30am in the morn

still chatting w abigail ow.hahha

facebook-ing. I think everyone is.Locked and cooped the whole day @ mommys'.

Went back to bishan to meet abby and Jinting.eheheh

Helped her w her surprised,so did jinting.hahah

that perfectionist. Realy cannot get to sleep so im craping.(:

IPOD YOURE ALIVE AGAIN!

what does it feel like to be real life?

Monetary value is most likely to destruct your relationship with anyone,unless both give and take.

yesterday was bad.

i guess i took it to another level which actually offend both him and I.

It is just a sensitive issue for me.

Money tree,

Daddy,i know you are trying your best, but i hope you've changed.

FOR GOOD; to be better.

i don't know how you managed your money. i hope for something good.

Maybe  a new family thats okay.Me and baby sis will be fine.

Just hope i am wrong about my assumptions.

i hope you don't do drugs anymore.

it hurts.

Mommy,

you have always been the best,Always.

to everyone.

its just that i feel you never learn.

maybe it is easier for both you and om(stepdad)

but i do not think it is still easy for me.

Even now.

I do feel neglected. i think baby sis does too.

Even now.

i just wanna be real for once. Not feeling guilty.

I feel lost most of the time, i guess nobody see it.

Everyone just wants me to hear them out,

but sometimes if you realise they do not ask me likewise.

Is everything  okay?

nope.

Yesterday,i feel that i lost you.

Even for a while. all those nasty you said to my face.

was that really you?

i wish not.

I am really sorry if you feel that way.

Do you think that i sacrifice this real life?

Do you think.

There is nothing you can buy to get this heart outta of hell.

and this mind out of jail.

i  ask you tonight what does it feel like ?

SCREWED.

i guess i screwed it up.what in the world was i thinking?!
gees.what dating?
hello!!he is there and lovin you.
PROs & Cons why he is/ not the best.(:
not controlling but will be sarcastic about the situation.
understanding(emphasize the VERY) think to deep about what i said.



YOU KNOW WHAT?
i guess the ony problem in us is:

TIME.



therfore, leads to misunderstanding.
Lack of self control(me)
But he too makes sarcastic remarks,or make me feel bad.eg.
ehhhhh errr he'll say why should he be answering to an angry person?
hello im not angry!i was just looking for his attention.


its alright though had a long weekend.
did not get to see him.
butno harm done.matter resolve.
need to talk about it more(:



i miss cassie.

wondering what she is doing.
Hope she'll get wellsoon.

cover

''But i've know i've never wanted anything so bad.
i've never wanted anyone so bad.
if i let you love me.be the one adore
would go all the way?be the one im looking for."

27 april2009

was at home the whole day today.
i know its cotradicting if i say i don't talk about my life.but here i am.hehe
anyways yeah got home,took a nap and cleared my book stash or whatever cass calls it.haha
love you laaa bdh.
then met up with her and fado dado.nice dude!
Do/finishing some of my assignments behind the library. Sorta like our smoking/wireless/chill place.hahha
Cass got irritated cos me and fad kept singing and she could not finish her work.(This landscape architecture) people, all so moody.
waiting for calls. 11pm.still not yet. 11.15 yet!(:
hahahha

today i learned that my dad is nice man and i should forgive him.
He called to check up on me. RANDOMLY.

Aunts could not stop yakking.What A household.





More life yet congested, being unpredictble just like the weather,
Thoughts so unclear.
saved.

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define

well its neither this nor that.
sometimes life can confuse once point of view
and definitely narrowing it down.
i can't define what is love although i used to be very in love.
im trying,god knows i am
am really trying very hard. people knows and expect to understand but at the end of the day,
they expect more from you. isn`t it hectic.
either way it is.
making ones point is as difficult as compromising the whole situation.
compromising and understanding comes from within.i learned.



miss na kita.




but if you were the who was spending the night, i wish that i was looking into your eyes.